sometimes i think i’m a screw up. like, what the hell am i doing with my life? but i really can make something out of myself. i just need to keep believing.
can i just tell you - you are not alone in feeling this way. and black chucks - nice!
I am thinking about what it means and what it feels like to move on in life; to leave the pieces on the floor, and close the door. You know?
It is interesting how people long to stay in situations or relationships that are unhealthy for them. Is it an addiction like that involving alcohol or drugs? Are we addicted to feeling the hurt or suffering? Or is it simply that we want to be able to fix the situation and what to be able to endure? Do we think, ‘if I make it through this, I will be worthy’ or ‘if I stay with this person, maybe I can change them’?
Well, it’s not true. We can’t change anyone. We can’t change any situation. We have to just do what’s best for ourselves & sometimes we just gotta move on(:
I’m also thinking about how amazingly cool this is. I hope you read all these(:
leaving pieces on the floor reminds me of the friends season finale when they all leave their keys on the counter and walk away. i don’t know if i could do it. ironically last night i had one of those dreams that feels so real - i just up and left and transferred to auburn university. why auburn? i don’t know… but even in my dream i was freaking out about what i’d done.
i think a lot of people take on “changing someone” as too serious of a project, and when it doesn’t work, they’re crushed. personal experience. it’ll keep happening, but once you learn, you learn.
and i read each of these. i promise.
1. *That* girl. (The one I may have somewhat flown 12,000 miles for, but I’m not sure she knows it.
2. Time to finally make that theme I promised you so long ago
3. A double breasted herringbone peacoat.
So yeah. That and I’m not helping my jetlag by still being awake at 2:30…
so much traveling! you’re hitting some major cities i’ve only dreamed of visiting. sounds like a lot of fun though :) i’m wondering how you know the girl - i haven’t even heard of brookeville, in.
and ahhh i forgot completely about the theme, hahah. you don’t have to make it if you don’t want to. i hope you travel safely and have a good time with your lady ;)